I miss my friend...

I know this sounds like I've been doing alot of whining the past couple of days -- and I guess I am -- but I'm really trying to put my thoughts on "paper" and, in doing that, everything's coming out. I'll start with the positives...I have more energy today. :) And, I've gotten more used to drinking the juice. It doesn't make me heave anymore, haha! I tried to drink 12 very cold ounces before lunch, and it made my tummy hurt. I've been attempting to gauge how much I can hold at one time since I had gastric bypass. Seems like 12 is probably the limit. I drank my lunch over the period of about 2-3 minutes. Plus, it was very cold, and I put it over ice...super cold. I'm still at the point where I'm...well let's say...not looking forward to it when it's time for juice. It's not really dread anymore, just more of a "blah" feeling. That, paired with my missing eating, is what's brought the tears that last couple of days. I guess you never really realize how big of a tie you have to something until it's gone. I feel like I've lost a life-long best friend, and I have...for 60 days, LOL! I just have to keep in mind that I will be able to eat again, just never like I did before. No more Pal's, McDonald's, lots of animal products. I guess that's part of it, too, that when this is done, I'll be EATING alot of fruits/veggies. I believe someday soon a light bulb will go off over my head and I'll say, "HEY! Feeling good and not on the verge of getting sick IS better than eating." It's not today, but someday soon, it will be "today".

P.S. -- My hubby ROCKS! :)