Chains are so heavy...

So, we just laid out a large amount of money for nutrition/food counseling with an AWESOME professional. But, I am struggling so hard. I swear, this food addiction has such an evil, strong hold on me. I don't know what to do. I did pray for a little bit and said, "God, I know your Son took all this on the cross for me, I'm claiming that." Because, really it IS sin, if you think about it. I'm being a glutton and so stubborn. I've done gastric bypass, I've done counseling, even a Celebrate Recovery group. It's like no matter what I do, I can't get free. I feel like I've got huge chains and weights on me. I don't know if it's more of a food addiction or an addiction to getting my way and doing what I want to do. Either way. I feel like nothing helps. I know this is whining, but I'm asking my friends to pray, send positive thoughts, whatever is your form of support. It's such a dark thing, so heavy and so evil. :(