Chains are so heavy...

So, we just laid out a large amount of money for nutrition/food counseling with an AWESOME professional. But, I am struggling so hard. I swear, this food addiction has such an evil, strong hold on me. I don't know what to do. I did pray for a little bit and said, "God, I know your Son took all this on the cross for me, I'm claiming that." Because, really it IS sin, if you think about it. I'm being a glutton and so stubborn. I've done gastric bypass, I've done counseling, even a Celebrate Recovery group. It's like no matter what I do, I can't get free. I feel like I've got huge chains and weights on me. I don't know if it's more of a food addiction or an addiction to getting my way and doing what I want to do. Either way. I feel like nothing helps. I know this is whining, but I'm asking my friends to pray, send positive thoughts, whatever is your form of support. It's such a dark thing, so heavy and so evil. :(

I'm back...again.

I was prompted by a friend to start blogging again, so here I am! (Thanks, Susan!) Well, hubby and I have started a new chapter in this journey. We've met with a natural/holistic nutritionist and have signed up for a good deal of sessions with her. We have been eating mostly organic food for a couple of weeks, and I can't tell you how much better we feel! The nutritionist is super nice, and she's very knowledgeable. Our new insurance declined one of my OCD meds (I take three), so I'm slowly weaning off of it. Honestly, I have felt no differently, thank God! Marie (our nutritionist) will come up with supplement plan specifically for hubby and me, and she said that one is definitely going to help where I'm coming off of that particular medicine. She is also going to hold cooking classes with us, a grocery store trip together to learn what's good and what's not good for us. I'm really excited. I believe we have, like, 10 sessions and six workshops, yippee! The sessions are an hour to an hour and a half each, and the workshops are around three hours each. I'm excited, this is going to be a weekly thing. She may actually get me to eat veggies...we'll see. ;) Stay tuned...